IS MY LIFE WORTH A DOLLAR????
My story is probably a bore to most of you. I married at 14 years old, had two children and have been married for 44 years to the same man. He is a good man that has been good to me and the children. My children married and have children so I am a grandmother and now a great-great grandmother. I am so proud of my family. My husband and I had 50.00 when we got married and we went to K-mart and bought two towels, two washcloths and toothpaste. We lived on crackers and peanut butter for two weeks until payday! We both came from large families who worked hard and paid our bills. We didn’t have much but we were happy. We both worked two jobs and went to school at night to get an education.
Over the years many things have happened in my life. I had to leave my job because of illness, Lupus, many things started happening to me health wise. Lupus affects everything. I now have so many different illness and medicines to take it is depressing. I think losing my hair on top of it all is the worst because being a woman everyone stares. It will not grow back. It isn’t because of the chemo but because of the Lupus. But I have kept on. Maybe one day I will get some help with that too.
We have never been rich or really even well off but we were comfortable. Then my daughter went through a terrible divorce. He didn’t care if the kids had food or anything. We tried to help our daughter keep her house and keep the kids in clothes and etc. This put a strain on us, but that is how we were raised to help each other.
When my husband retired after 40 years on the job he didn’t have a 401k or anything like that but we thought we could make it. He started working part time as soon as he retired because they would not insure me anymore. (This we didn’t know) I felt bad about that but we did what we had to.
After going through so much financially a “friend” told us he could double or even triple what savings we had. I was so excited and I trusted him. Well the “friend” is gone and so is the money. Like it never existed. We finally found her but the money was gone. My illness has also drained us, but this was devastating. I trusted this person and now we are so in debt we could lose our home. I am responsible for this because I did it. I can’t look my husband in the eye anymore. I can’t pay my bills now and will lose my home if something doesn’t happen soon. I kept praying something would come up and a heavenly angel would help us. Didn’t happen. But I still believe in Angels. Maybe they are internet Angels!!!!
I have been so depressed I get closer and closer to just ending it all. I have given myself so much time to either get some help or do what I have to do. I want to live a long life with my family but I am so ashamed of what I have done. My husband doesn’t deserve this nor my family. Then….. I accidently came across this site. Could??? Would??? Someone help me??? Please………… if you could send something, anything I would appreciate it. If I come out of this I will do whatever it takes to always help someone else in this situation. I have always helped anyone never dreaming someone could be this desperate. Life is not worth living right now. My nerves are terrible making the disease get worse
I came across this website by accident. Maybe it is a God sent. I don't know. Maybe someone out there cares.
Is my life worth a dollar to anyone? I know there are thousands of people out there and I thank you for listening. Please keep me in your thoughts. I am desperate. God Bless. Paypal or mail. Anything appreciated.
Email slaspin60@yahoo.com
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